Reuni kecil..

To describe my life at it's best, would be to really look at it from the dark side. Gue bingung aja, dari gue kecil gue gak pernah ngerti besar arti membahagiakan orang. I simply try to look at things as simple as i could, but then sulk and bore myself out at home in my head. That is why i often hear stereotypic adjective of "pendiem" next to my name. We often lead ourselves to something we believe, or something we assume to be right, disregarding oppositions coming from cruel eyes. All my life.. that's what i've been teaching myself to do.. and all my life i will continue. My decision to take a 'pause' out of the academic calender proposes a "pause" to rethink and retrace the steps which led me to where i am now. Honestly speaking, this is not where i had pictured myself to be when i was 8. My life is a gift, sure. But somehow i feel that i'm losing control and things are just slipping out of my hands continuously. I'm losing the ability to grasp.. it just won't stop. Back to my original point... telling someone that you have failed to meet their expectation is one thing, but telling someone -that you care about- that you've given up, is another. Two separate issues that collide at every corner.


This is not about me... it's just one random situation i picked out and felt more today. Oh btw, sori jadi panjang lebar- tp gue baru rasain skrg bahwa gue lbh bisa mengekspresikan diri gue lewat tulisan implisit kayak gini. Sorry, i couldn't resist! ;)


*ehem* Tadi gue janjian diluar metro Opera, janjian ketemu temen2 lama; temen2 sma. He, lucu juga.. kesannya kayak udah setaun!:p Cuaca yg tadinya ok2 aja tiba2 jadi mendung, dan gak lama setelah itu rintikan hujan turun, diikuti pasukannya, sehingga hari yg tadinya diperkirakan indah, secara instan berubah^^; Hmm.. went to [Starbucks], liat2 [Galeries Lafayette] (liat2 doang.. beli mah kemahalan, hehe) trus pulang deh... Ok, one can argue gue ngapain ke cafe amrik sementara gue di paris.. but that's the same as saying: why go to haagen dazs? :p ya kan.. Yah, setidaknya gue nganggap gitu. Dan bukannya gue coffee lover- tp ini for the sake of the social circle (apa siih...^^;;) Well anyways, I had fun... ngobrol2 ttg masa depan yg kayaknya udah jelas buat mreka. Well.. all the luck deh buat mereka... :)